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40 Days Without Mary Jane

Please read the important Disclaimer at the end of this post – thank you!

If you live in a Catholic country, you’re probably aware that it is Lent (fasting time). While my colleagues and friends renounce alcohol or sweets, I have decided to tackle something different: weed. Somewhere between moving to Berlin and coming back, I had too much free time on my hands and realized that Mary Jane and I became a little too close. So what better time to sober up than now? It would also reduce my munchies and be a particularly healthy time… right?

I believe many people have ‘their’ one favorite drug: Might it be booze, coffee, pills; for me it is marihuana. Ever since I’ve first tried it I have enjoyed the effects that it has on me. It calms me down, but can also make me energetic, I feel spontaneous and everything is fun.


For legal reasons, I call this photo ‘Statute-barred youth sins’.

Only in the last couple of months, I often had problems relaxing. I often felt like I was wasting time and needed to do something. I stressed about forgetting things (which I usually remembered soon after). It was time to sober up. The last event I planned on smoking weed was very daunting, with over 40 days of asceticism ahead. What I was afraid of was that my psychological state would aggravate, and finding out parties are no fun and dancing is too intimidating.

The withdrawal took about two weeks.

I didn’t think it was gonna be as hard as it was but turns out weed has more of a long-term effect than I thought. It’s not like I smoke on the daily or even every week but not smoking at all felt worse than I thought it would. Physically I was fine… Emotionally, however, I ended up in a dark place. As I described earlier this could, however, have something do to with my unsatisfying life circumstances at that point.


I missed you, Mary Jane.

I had some cravings, that’s all I will say. Especially when going out I like smoking weed, now I drank alcohol instead. Since I haven’t been properly drunk in at least a year I had expected to get there easily. Surprisingly enough, this was not the case, so my plan for saving money on drinks did not work out. The parties I went to were great, so I didn’t feel the need to be high to enjoy them. You may be thinking that I could’ve just gone out and stayed sober altogether. I didn’t know if I could’ve handled that… call me a fraud, but that’s what it is.


The forest nearby my home where I grew two weed plants in my late teens.

No munchies = weight loss?

My fasting did not only cover marihuana but I also wanted to live and eat healthier, maybe get a little in shape. I didn’t find much motivation to do sports, dunno if it was the mood swings or my general spring tiredness. I think I ate a lot healthier though. Not having any munchies I also ate a lot less junk food and sweets – my blood sugar levels were great! I expected all of this positive change to result in a little weight loss, but I even gained a little weight. Might it be true that marihuana influences the metabolism? It’s not that I need to lose weight, I know that, but after this ordeal, I honestly ask myself what did I fast for if I didn’t get in any better shape. And isn’t that kinda why all of us go on diets if we’re honest?

I feel good and think I have a healthier lifestyle than I did before. I see the positive effects the fasting time, especially refraining from weed, has had on me and I believe that most of the ‘negative’ effects relate to the withdrawal. I’m happy to say that my fears of what might happen didn’t come true! I will stay sober more often in the future but for the time being, I’m glad the 20th of April is up ahead. Happy International Cannabis Day!



Important Disclaimer (please read):

This post features some of my experiences. I am not suggesting Cannabis has a positive effect on the mind or the body. Like always, there are two sides to the story. Negative effects of Cannabis may include dry mouth/skin, memory loss and paranoia, among others (see the first link of my suggested reading for more information). I am not promoting Cannabis as a healthy choice. What you want to include into your lifestyle is your decision and I don’t want to influence you into any direction.
If you’ve ever had hallucinations, pseudo-hallucinations, schizophrenic episodes or if you’re not of legal age, please be aware that hallucinogenic drugs, especially Cannabis, may trigger a psychosis!

Suggested further reading:
Implications on harmful Effects of Cannabis by myfusimotors

Differences between Hemp, Marijuana, Cannabis by thirdeye
Cannabis Chronicles: The Woman with a Health Addiction by Wandering inside Her Mind…
Martha Steward Working on Cannabis-Based Products by Variety

More posts in this series:
A Week without Social Media | Part 1
One month without a phone
One Year Without Therapy


Compulsive nonconformist who left the 9-to-5 world after studying psychology and has since then devoted himself to design and writing on a freelance basis. Has at least four different kinds of chips at home at any given time.


  • 28. April 2019

    Wow. That’s a pretty strong disclaimer. Why did you feel the need to add it?

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