FRACTURES [Short Film]
Over the course of the past six months, I have written a poem, constantly changing what it was about as my life was changing with it. Figuring out what I wanted to say, forgetting what my message was and finding it again, puzzling together a text that was as schizophrenic as I often felt in this time. When I was finished, I recorded a video, added original music and sound and made an experimental video short out of it. Today I wanna present the result of this process. I poured a lot of myself into these 2 mins video, so I’m happy to hear feedback or reactions.
Warning: Might be triggering to some sensitive viewers.
Balancing brains and heart
Ignoring the hustle
Doing the opposite of what feels right
Letting go and giving in
Loving myself for one part and hating another
Missing every day, too proud to admit
Not fading into irrelevance
Telling myself that I can do this
Everything is never enough
Trying to forget that you exist
Will you stop reminding me
And sometimes I miss us
I miss what we could have been and never will be
I miss us, even though I don’t know anymore what that is
Hirn und Herz im Gleichgewicht
Ignorieren der Hektik
Mich selbst deaktiveren
Das Gegenteil von dem tun, was sich richtig anfühlt
Loslassen und nachgeben
Mich selbst für einen Teil lieben und den anderen hassen
Jeden Tag vermissen, zu stolz, es zuzugeben
Nicht in die Bedeutungslosigkeit verfallen
Mir selbst sagen, dass ich das tun kann
Alles ist niemals genug
Versuchen, zu vergessen, dass man existiert
Wirst du aufhören, mich daran zu erinnern
Und manchmal vermisse ich uns
Ich vermisse das, was wir hätten sein können und niemals sein werden
Ich vermisse uns, auch wenn ich nicht mehr weiß, was das ist
Where is my heart?
About Last Night
Warm Hands, Cold Body
That video was great! Writing poetry is a big enough challenge, but adding in creating a video to back it up is a whole other layer of impressive!
Plus, it reminded me of something David Lynch would create, so you’re definitely hitting a vibe I appreciate!
Ben Leander Willgruber
Thank you! You probably know the feeling of how scary it can be to put something pretty personal on the internet, and with this new medium I was again pretty terrified. So, good to hear such nice feedback – especially the David Lnych comment 😉