My closet has an empty shelf
soon to be restocked again
Recycling time and money
is that how I take care of myself?
Once two, then three, then one
I don’t know what to make of this
and what we have become
In the end I don’t discard
that I will runaway
because after all what I want is
simply to be happy
and not feel guilty about that
Isn’t it ironic that I can write personal posts yet can’t throw away
a disgustingly overused toothbrush?
Last week’s post gained a lot of views, as suspected. Maybe people are most interested in personal stories or maybe some readers experienced similar situations. Maybe we all just love the drama and I see nothing wrong with that either. However, I have been overwhelmed with the response. There were just a few too many messages sent and questions repeated. ‘What happened?’, ‘Did you guys breakup?’ – and I would’ve just liked to say ‘Read the damn blog if you have questions.’ But of course, if I put personal stuff out there, I have to handle that, too.
I am doing fine btw, thanks for asking, person I haven’t talked to in years. It’s going up and down. When I’m down I remind myself that this was the right step, when I’m up I feel guilty for being happy and enjoying my time. So, statistically speaking, it all evens itself out pretty much.
Phases of a Breakup?
Every day feels different and when I started to believe I had a schizophrenic heart, I read up that there are common phases of a breakup. They go as follows:
- Denial (It can’t be true)
- Bargaining (Doing anything to avoid it’s over)
For me, however, it’s more everything at once and then some. This topic, however, is probably way too complex for a 5-step-model, right?
I hope wherever you are that you are doing fine and taking care of your mental health. There’s is literally nothing more important in the world (well except maybe physical health tying on spot number one). I’m currently trying out Qigong and since I’m growing out my hair and can’t get a typical post-breakup haircut, I got a nose ring. No regrets.